Just a short one =]

Today was amazing, my fiancé came to see me, and I'm so glad he did =] love him so much.

I cant believe its only 21 hours til il be sunning it up =]

Wont be blogging tomorrow though, but will do when i come back =] I'm so excited.

Emyii xxx

Horrible Weather =[

So today was rather wet and windy, was absolutely drenched when i got to the job centre to fill out my holiday form.

Went to go visit my friend today as well, it was nice to see her for an hour =]

Then came home and my auntie visited to do my feet =] she buffed them then painted my toe nails =] that's twice now that they have been pampered. =]

So tomorrow, my fiancé is coming round, cant wait to see him =] still got a few things to do and pack before Sunday but it will be nice to see him. =]

If i don't blog tomorrow i will blog when i get back home from my holiday =]

Emyii xxx

It's going to be a long day =[

Okay so I've just watched alpha dog, seen it loads before so not much to say about it, i have seen better films though.

Listening to music at the moment, I've had a migraine since yesterday and painkillers don't seem to be working =[ so it kind of hurts like hell, might be something to do with me teeth but haven't got pain there, just hope it vanishes today.

So I've got 4 days til my holiday, I'm dead excited but still got loads of stuff to do before i go. Finally got my SD card in the post so my camcorder is ready to use =]

I'm kinda hoping my fiancé comes today, I'd really like to see him before i go, and i kinda cant go to his, as i don't have a lot of money left =[

Will write soon, Emyii xxx

Strawberries and Cream =]

Okay so I'm not very good at writing an entry every night because i seem to go to bed early but i will be telling you about what i did yesterday =]

So i went to my aunties as she took me to my dentist appointment, i thought it would be easier to go to hers instead and help out.

I get spoilt so much when I'm there =] i had a bacon and egg toasted sandwich, which was gorgeous =]
Then i had a meringue with strawberries and cream, never usually get treated this much, but i loved it =]

Me and my auntie ended up tidying her bedroom, so chucking clothes out, then folding some and putting them away, enjoyed the conversations in between.

And then when it got to 7pm, my mum had come to pick me up and my auntie ended up making us dinner =] which was lovely as well, I was al so given some clothes and a first aid kit for my holiday.

Well i had loads of fun there, and i love my family so much, they make me happy =]

Will write soon, Emyii xxx

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Okay so early this morning, i watched My Sisters Keeper and i cried so much.


If you don't know what it is, ill explain now.


Anna Fitzgerald looks to earn medical emancipation from her parents who until now have relied on their youngest child to help their leukaemia-stricken daughter Kate remain alive.


It just got to me so much, i couldn't stop crying throughout the film, it moved me so much.I recommend to watch it, because it is a very good film but get the tissues at the ready for it, because your going to need them. 

Will write soon, Emyii xxx

My Time Yesterday =]

Hey, I would of blogged yesterday about what i did, but i was just so tired that i fell asleep as soon as i got home, so i will tell you now what i did. =]

Well as you know i went to my aunties and i had such a good time there =] I had a pedicure done, and I've never had one before because i hate feet, i even hate touching my own feet but it was so nice, my auntie made my feet really smooth but she told me to stick to moisturising them =]

And then me and my mum stayed for dinner =] we ended up getting a chippy dinner because it was cheap, oh and really nice =] 

Had such a nice day =] 

Will write soon, Emyii xxx

I'm now on single digits =] its only 9 days til i go away and i really cant contain my excitement =]

I re-packed my case last night, only took out two dresses and two tops and its still really heavy but that might just be me (i have no upper body strength) =]

This next week is going to be my busiest, i have a lot to do =] fingers crossed i get paid on Monday though, really want to buy cosmopolitan mag for the journey =]

Also updated my MP3 last night, so now i have loads of good music to listen too, all i really need to pack now is electronics and I'm all sorted =]

Managed to put a couple of stuff in my hand luggage as well and I've already chosen what I'm wearing =]
So in case your wondering what exactly il be wearing, I'm going to tell you =] but i will post a picture when i come back.

Okay so il be wearing a waterfall top in white with a colourful swirly pattern on the front (my sister gave it to me) also will be wearing black leggings that i got from Matalan =] black sandals that I've had for like 6 years but are really comfy to travel in =] and last but not least, my cowboy hat that i got in Asda =] as it doesn't fit in my case, I'm going to have to wear it =]

So today I'm going to my aunties to see the family =] Also my cousin wants her toenails doing so i will probably do them =] Better get ready to go.

Will write soon, Emyii xxx

Music =]

I love music, life wouldn't be worth living without music in my life.
Music has changed me over the years =]

If i has a good beat then i will listen to it.
But most of all, i like songs that have meanings, lyrics that capture your feelings and heart =]

For me, its classical music or music without lyrics.
Love listening to Andre Rieu who is a violinist =]
Katherine Jenkins is an opera singer =]
Escala who play instruments =]
Keedie is another opera singer i enjoy listening too =]
And then there HIM, Ville Valo has the most amazing voice ever =] His lyrics are amazing, he opened my eyes to the world with his music. Even his songs have made me cry because there so emotional.

Hope you enjoy reading this, I know its a short one, but at the moment im stuck on what to talk about =] Will write soon, Emyii xxx

The Teabag Effect =]

Okay going to talk about the teabag effect =]

I swear by this, its amazing =]

The teabag acts like a shield on a cracked nail =]

What you need:

• Teabag
• Scissors
• Double Duty Nail Varnish
• Tweezers
• Nail File 

Step 1:

Clean your nail with nail varnish remover and file the crack to smooth it over and file the edge.

Step 2:

Grab your teabag and cut the top off and empty the contents. You only need one side of the teabag so cut it in half then cut a square out that will fit over the crack.

Step 3:

Put a thin layer of double duty nail varnish over your nail and use the tweezers to pick up your square and place over the crack, then use a generous amount of double duty nail varnish to secure it.

Step 4:

Leave to dry and then the square will be hard, so there is no chance of it coming off and you can leave it on for as long as you like.

Step 5:

Use your chosen nail varnish colour and your nail is now perfect.


Hope this helped =] Will write soon, Emyii xxx

Excitement =]

I cant believe its only 12 days til i go on holiday =] Absolutely cant wait, I'm so excited, being in a different place with nothing to worry about, i could just scream =]

Okay, I'm going to miss my fiancé, but ill be texting him every morning and night and its only for a week so I'm sure we will survive =]

Just cant control my excitement for this =] this could probably be my last holiday for a while and i want to enjoy every last second of it.

So my dad has given me a camcorder to borrow so i can take videos and I'll be taking my camera with 3 SD cards so I'm sure to take loads of pictures. Thinking about doing outfit of the days and nights =]

I have read so much about the hotel and it seems loads of people have enjoyed it there, the hotel is called Luabay =] and its right on the beach, so just a 5 minute walk =]

As soon as i get back home, i will be writing an entry on my experience, it will probably be a rather long one, but its worth it =] So many times i have forgotten holidays and i want to remember this one.

It's been 3 years since i was last on a plane and I'm kind of pooping myself a bit =] but I'm sure i will be fine =] just want to be there now, relaxing, sunbathing, eating nice food, drinking ice cold drinks and enjoying the atmosphere =]

Hope you enjoy =] Will write soon, Emyii xxx

Water Marbling =]

Okay so i finally did my nails =]
The quality isn't very good, used a different camera and you still cant see the design so might have to save up for a new camera to take pictures like this.
I used Boots own nail varnish in red, Barry M pink and Accessorize in orange.

Hope you enjoy =] Will write soon, Emyii xxx

You are who you are =]

So I've been recently watching a programme called Ladyboys, its about men who are Ladyboys or who want to be female.

This entry is called you are who you are, I don't care what you are, whether your straight, gay, lesbian, transsexual etc.

I will respect you and any of your decisions.

We are all the same, we are all human, no one is different, i would never judge any one on their sexuality.

So to any one out there who is ashamed of their sexuality, don't be, people need to see you for you, your sexuality doesn't change the person inside of you.

Being happy and having people around you that accept you, is all you really need =]



Hope you enjoyed reading this =]

P.S. Will be doing my nails later on today, so will post a picture then =]

Will write soon, Emyii xxx

What I'll Be Doing Today =]

So today I'll be doing my sisters nails today and my own of course =] I will take pictures of our designs and post them on here for you to enjoy =]

We both want water marble nails so fingers crossed it turns out right.

If you don't know how to do water marbling i will explain now =]

What you need:

• Room temperature water 
• Medium sized tub or bowl
• 1 Orange stick
• 2 Ear buds
• Nail Varnishes (None with quick dry)
• Sticky tape
• Nail varnish remover
• Top coat nail varnish 

Step 1:

Fill your tub or bowl up with water, leave to settle as you clean your nails with nail varnish remover.

Step 2: 

Cut two pieces of tape, 1 bit should go below the nail, just touching the cuticle and the other piece should go around the finger like a hood.

Step 3: 

Choose out your colours, preferably 3 or more would be best, make sure they are watery.

Step 4: 

Paint your nails white, two coats would do. Wait for that to dry then start dripping your chosen nail varnishes in to your tub or bowl, making sure all the colours stay in the same circle.

Step 5:

Take your orange stick and start dragging the nail varnish to combine the colours to make your design, just a gentle touch will do, and don't leave it too long til you start doing this process otherwise it wont work and the nail varnish will dry quickly.

Step 6:

Place your nail over your chosen design, and push your finger straight in to the water making sure you don't move, in case you ruin it.

Step 7: 

Grab your ear bud and use that to remove the rest of the varnish from the top of the water, after you have done that, pull your finger out and your design should be done.

Step 8:

Do the rest of your fingers with your design, bearing in mind, it doesn't matter if all of them aren't the same, that's what's so quirky about doing this.

Step 9: 

Remover all the tape off your fingers, being careful that you don't catch your nails on it so would be best to cut it off instead.

Step 10:

Use your top coat to finish off your nails and your done =]

Hope you enjoyed reading this =] If you attempt this, please send me a picture, would love to see your designs =] Will write soon, Emyii xxx

Things that make me happy =]

Just a list of things that make me happy =]

• Cute Animals
• Nail Art - Nail Polish
• Love - My Fiancé and My Family
• Japanese Films
• Make Up
• My Blog 
• Music
• Clothes 
• Beautiful Landscapes
• Taking Photos
• Games
• People Making Me Laugh
• Facebook and Tumblr 
• My Bed
• Sunny Weather
• Romantic Films
• Food 
• Tea 
• Jewellery
• Candles
• Wind Chimes  
• Drawing, Painting
• Disney Films
• Random Knick Knacks
• Books - Fantasy, Love
• Nature
• Flowers
• My Dolls House
• Anime - Sailor Moon, Peach Girl, Fruits Basket, Cardcaptors, Chobits, Pokemon
• Other Peoples Blogs - Bubzbeauty, Beautycrush, Michelle Phan
• Mermaids, Fairies, Unicorns 
• Colour 
• Christmas 
• Buying and Wrapping Presents 
• Ornaments
• Art
• Freshly Cut Grass
• Fruity Perfume
• Washing Softener 
• Eurovision
• Dolls House + Miniatures 

If there is anything else, i will add to it =] Hope you enjoy reading this =] Will write soon, Emyii xxx

What I'm going to do =]

Just a small entry about what I'm actually going to talk about on my blog. =]

I will be blogging about make up, nail art, everyday life, random things i like, reviews on things i have bought and other little things that i want to talk about =]

I want to keep my blog interesting for all of you to read =]

So enjoy =] will write soon, Emyii xxx

Me =]

Today I'm going to talk about myself and how I've changed over the past couple of years =]

To start off with, when i was about 13, i started discovering new things and ended up following crowds, i was known as a "mosher", i was shy, never really talked to any one at all, didn't join in with anything, wore a lot of black and chewed my nails to death (which I'm really embarrassed about now) but i was like that til it came to leaving school. In my first year of college, i tried to incorporate more colour in to my wardrobe and i stopped biting my nails. And i made new friends, which helped me come out of my shell a bit more.

And then when it came to my second year at college, i wasn't that "mosher girl" any more, i became a bit more open to what i wore and became obsessed with the colour pink =] I still wore black but not as much and the same with my third year.

After leaving college, i started doing my nails properly, it started with just painting them and then got interested in nail art, when i saw a video about a konad stamping set. I became entranced over it and bought my first set, i loved it. As well as finding that, i started to widen my range of music and realised that everything i listened to, i liked.
I also started buying nice girly clothes, loads of colours and variety, more make up and nail art tools (which is growing all the time)

So for saying all this, I'm glad that I've changed, its helped a lot, i have found something that i enjoy and can also do it as a career.

Life isn't worth being stuck in the same frame of mind all the time =] a little change is no hurt to yourself

Hope you liked this entry =] will write soon, Emyii xxx

Future

So this entry is going to be about what i want to happen in the future =]

Future meaning tomorrow, next week, next month, next year and many years on.

So this year there are a lot of things happening, first of all i am going on holiday to Lanzarote with my mum at the end of this month, i absolutely cant wait, just to relax for a week without stress and pressure =]

Then in September i start college again, the last time i was in college was when i left school that was when i was 16 and i stayed in college til i was 19, did an IT course which was okay but i did meet my sexy fiancé there though, so something good came out of it =] ever since i finished , I've been trying really hard to find a job, but its been really difficult, for the fact that i don't have qualifications. But I'm 21 now and I've found the perfect college and the perfect course, i will be doing nail art at level 2 =] I've been practising nail art for 3 years now but i know that i will start from the beginning and work my way up.
The course is for a year and i will get a NVQ from it if i pass and if i want to i can apply for the level 3 course and do another year to practise more intricate nail art =]

Moving a bit further forward into the future, i want to get married to my fiancé and maybe have children one day. I also want my own nail art boutique =] even if i have to live above it, i will be happy =] just want my life to kick start now, but i know i have to wait til the perfect moment.

But for now i need to start looking after myself, so i feel good and positive =]

So I'm going to stop smoking and lose weight for college and start making myself look presentable (still need my teeth doing though) =] all in good time though, after i come back from holiday, i will start preparing myself and sorting everything out =]

I need to start living life like its a new start everyday =]

Hope you enjoy reading this =] Will write soon, Emyii xxx

Bullying

In my last entry i explained how i was bullied.

And now im going to talk about being bullied and dealing with being bullied.

I've been bullied all my life, glad its stopped now though and people can see the real me. I was bullied because i was different, i was classed as "weird".

I was the shy one, never really spoke to anyone but my closest friends and they never helped me through it anyway (some did, but i cant remember who).
As it got worse in secondary school, i got depressed about it, i had hit the low of it. I used to write stories of death, looked at pictures of blood and suicide and at one point in my life, i cut myself. Those 7 years of my life ruined me. I saw psychologists all the time for it, people started getting scared of me, they would avoid me in school, i felt powerful but at the same time i was very lonely, no one to talk too, no one to make me happy and stop thinking bad things.
At one point, i wanted to end my life, i couldn't take it. Friends became distant and my family didn't know what to say or do about it, i didn't want help, i just wanted to die. Most nights i would cry myself to sleep, just for the pain to go away, but i was too scared to end my own life, but always thought whether anyone would miss me or not. Would anyone realise i wasn't there any more, did anyone even care!

I never cut my wrists because they were always on show, so i cut my leg instead. One stage when i was at my worst, i cut far too deep, yes the release of pressure had gone but the scar that still remains to this day, haunts me and i don't think i can do anything like that again.

I don't know what changed, maybe when i realised i couldn't do this any more or maybe when i realised that my friend was doing it over a boy. But i stopped! I'm actually scared of anything sharp, but i cant just go my life without not touching a knife, so i have to be brave and think to myself that i have control and im not going to do anything stupid. I got the help i needed and made new friends. I could never bring myself to do anything like that again, life isn't that bad now so i don't worry as much, and i haven't been depressed since i was 16, so really ive achieved something =]

Being bullied isn't nice and for all of you out there, there is help for you! You will pull through this, you just have to be strong and fight back, be the better person =]

I'm happier now than ive ever been in my life, i have a wonderful fiancé that i love, an absolutely amazing family and soon il be going back to college to study something i love.

Hope this has helped =] will write soon, emyii xxx

School Life

Okay so its 8.30am and i thought i should write this post as I have been thinking about it all night.

I'm going to start with telling you about my school life (lets just hope i can remember it) =]

Primary School:

It was not the best way to start my life, i can only really remember snippets of it though. It wasn't great, maybe better when i was 4 but as i got older i knew what i was doing. Actually wish i went to a different school then maybe things would be different. The bullying first started at primary school, name calling, being pushed around, stuff like that, nothing really that bad but i didn't do much to stop it, just constantly cry and didn't involve myself into team work and activities.

When i left, i thought it would be different, starting secondary school, maybe everything would change, i was wrong!

Secondary School:

The worst 7 years of my life, the people who bullied me in primary, joined my secondary which made everything worse and yet i didn't help myself yet again. It was all petty stuff like before but eventually got worse, I got into trouble a lot, but i didn't know what else to do to avoid the bullies. I put on an "act" while i was there, to show them that i wasn't scared, sometimes it worked and sometimes it didn't. It started with the name calling and the pushing around then it just kept getting worse. I ended up getting suspended at one point because of my "hard act", i did something really stupid (i hate talking about it really). When i came back after a month, things didn't change, people thought i had died! It was shocking to know something like that. I hated being there, so getting into trouble helped, i could be sent out of a class and sit by myself and then it eventually left me to "bunk" school instead, which really didn't help my school work, i loved photography, science and geography, they were the best subjects ever and i loved being there just for them =]

So i left school when i was 16, im now 21. And i don't miss it at all, maybe if it panned out different then maybe i would have better friends and qualifications but it didn't. Okay, being there did make me the person i am today, i wouldn't be so random and weird if none of that happened but i still wish i could go back in time and change a few things about it.

Hope you liked my new entry =] will write soon, emyii xxx

First Blog =]

Well...... this is my first Blog, and I'm hoping to stick to it =] I don't really know what to say, maybe i should talk about myself and my life to start off with. =]

Lets start from the beginning, i was born in the UK and im still living there now (want to move though, been here far too long)

So at the moment I live with my mum, sister, two cats and a guinea piggy =]
My mum and dad divorced 8 years a go, he is now living with his new wife and their new child (my half sister) together with their doggy and cat.

I am in a lovely relationship at the moment with my squishy (pet name), this November it will be our 4 years and yes i am engaged but were not getting married soon though, were going to wait til the perfect moment =]

I am currently unemployed but going to college in September to get my nail art qualification and then maybe I'll get a job (fingers crossed) =] One day i want to have my own nail boutique =] but i haven't come up with a name yet =]

Well that's all i have to say at the moment, but will Blog more tomorrow =]